I feel all these years of my life in the Sonic Hacking Community have been nothing more than a waste the "prime" part of my youth in my 20's to be thrown away in a dumpster.... I feel like I've should've pursued other hobbies and interests (and possibly done other things with my life) instead of wasting my time trying to please or "become big" to the 'higher ups' of a community that is generally small (and soon to be irrelevant) anyways. I honestly always ponder on my own life sometimes wondering how much different and much better it could have been socially if I didn't waste my time in my keeping within my own narrow scope of hacking Sonic games. I could have been a famous Youtuber star or celebrity if I pursued a degree or had a passion in film or other interests instead of game development! The only issue for me back then with that was really my lack of interest in those fields, which I guess is one of the reasons I'm not a famous on YouTube star this day. I could have also spend a lot more time trying to develop my social skills or appearance to attract women and eventually develop a long term healthy relationship to get myself married off like the rest of my old peers from High School instead of wasting my life stressing over pleasing people from a pointless hobby. Of course my main issue with that however was being able to overcome my social struggles with my autistic disability.
Now that my "prime" part of my youth is nearly over (age 27 currently), all those chances and opportunities of becoming truly "famous" and/or getting happily married off have probably passed and now I might ended up living the rest of life in complete regret of being forever alone to never raise a family of my own to pass my family's legacy down and to become completely forgotten and invisible by the rest of society. The only positive thing that I can say about this experience would be that without it I probably wouldn't be having a well paying job in web development with my current position as a "Senior Software Developer" (currently making $77K annually). So at least if every other avenue of my life is a complete failure, I can at least gloat about my position of work and my wealth.
Now that my "prime" part of my youth is nearly over (age 27 currently), all those chances and opportunities of becoming truly "famous" and/or getting happily married off have probably passed and now I might ended up living the rest of life in complete regret of being forever alone to never raise a family of my own to pass my family's legacy down and to become completely forgotten and invisible by the rest of society. The only positive thing that I can say about this experience would be that without it I probably wouldn't be having a well paying job in web development with my current position as a "Senior Software Developer" (currently making $77K annually). So at least if every other avenue of my life is a complete failure, I can at least gloat about my position of work and my wealth.